Obstacles (5/13/19)

The hopelessness that sets in
is almost impossible to bear
sitting by
waiting it out
hoping it will all turn out ok
but life doesn't work that way
we are dealt a hand
of cards
with unfortunate obstacles
and exciting surprises
but not everyone's hand is
balanced
most – in fact – are not
and as I watch others flip their
card of surprise
I'm left behind
staring at my newest obstacle
holding back tears
wanting to scream
misery clawing at my throat
attempting to bring others down
with me
but I won't
I refuse
because it's my card
not theirs
and they don't deserve the pain
...
just call it another one
of my obstacles.