Gone

they're gone
every last one of them

all because I said
"leave me alone"

but now it's lonely
and the birds are chirping

mocking me
because at least they have friends

they left me behind
without knowing why

as if they thrive on my sadness
and wanted me to contemplate those heights

the silence creeps over my skin
stabbing into my veins

I wait for everything to stop
I wait for the buzzing to go numb

I waited
in the loud silence

Catch a Glimpse

the syllables hum through the drums

as the tapping becomes steady

pulsing through her flesh as her wrist

gyrates to the beat

eyelashes sweep her rosy cheeks

shoulders relax into her spine

and her neck begins to sway

back and forth

the intricate mask is cracking

away from the world

where no one can see the rawness

underneath

but me

the light goes out

leaving me alone in the room

with an occasional tap of her pen

to let me know

she’s okay

across the room the droplet

catches itself in the

poor lighting

glistening down her seemingly

perfect face

and then the syllables

waft in softly

and suddenly

neither of us is

alone

and when you acted like

it never happened

pretended I didn't exist

I wish I could have said to you

everything within

but you walked away

with your hands tied behind

not aware

that I knew the truth

had just been lies

you're not my friend

feels like you never were

cause real friends

make me feel secure

I'm moving on

not looking back

since you're not the guy

I once loved back

I miss the old you

the one that was there

and you're not that person

cause he actually cared

so now I'm stuck

missing someone who doesn't

exist

while you go on not realizing

what you've dismissed

Distance

There are those times when

tears are clear,

transparent and painful.

And all the moments

that I fight to win

are useless –

my strength no match,

damaging my pride

and much

much more.

Separation

the walls are closing in
crashing down
all around
until the only essence left
is loneliness

no supports
no beams
no groups or teams

the doors closed
locked you in
to fend for yourself
to make the most
or to destroy the best
until it all ends

nothing feels safe
no one – no place

and all you can do
is shut down

The Surface Doesn't Mean A Thing

the feeling wells up
within me
only anger
can surface
anger at the hand
I've been dealt
anger that I
can't understand
– no one can understand
as well as
the pain
within
that screams out
in an attempt
to control
and destroy
hopes,
dreams,
hard work –
and the person
I emphasize
...until it's gone.

My Wish

I wish your arms
never had to release me


I wish your smile
never left my sight


I wish your love
would always be there


Because I honestly don't know
where I'd be
without you.