You Make Me (4/26/19)

I am made to be the villain
all powerful and corrupt
filled with anger and hostility
with no understanding
or sympathy

But that is not me
It is not who I am
It is not who I want to be
This person you make me

So I sit and cry
and try to understand
where I went wrong
or what I can do to
fix it all

But I'm at a loss
and no thoughts
will come
and there are no answers
to this world you've created

I'm in a box
made to be
someone
I am not
yet it's all that
you see
when you look at
me

I am made to be the victim
helpless and alone
stuck with no guidance
no answers in sight

I am made to be the victim
filled with anger and hostility
with no understanding
or sympathy
for me.

The Surface Doesn't Mean A Thing

the feeling wells up
within me
only anger
can surface
anger at the hand
I've been dealt
anger that I
can't understand
– no one can understand
as well as
the pain
within
that screams out
in an attempt
to control
and destroy
hopes,
dreams,
hard work –
and the person
I emphasize
...until it's gone.