Reminisce

the seasons change

but that's not all

for the feelings within

evaporate from the walls

it's not yet over

that I guarantee

for the truth of the matter is

it's just a new beginning

it is never the end

unless you let it be true

cause this trickling

up my spine

reminds me

of you.

Finally, The Truth

I needed space

I needed time

I needed to understand

that what I did was wrong

that I hurt you

that I caused you pain

that everything we had hoped for

had faded away

it all came crashing down

suffocating –

restricting –

telling me ... it wasn't fair

I had become the source

of your pain

when already, you dealt with worse

it happened in a snap of time

forever changing everything

I couldn't look you in the eye

'cause what I saw, was what I had left

behind

I quickly became that guy

that caused you

the most pain

and I couldn't live with my

shame

I always thought that I would be

the guy to keep you

safe and happy

It became difficult

to look at

you

knowing all that I had done

but I hope you know

that it once was real

because I had truly wanted

to be that guy

for you

Short-Term Instead

you once understood me

down to the slightest

crease in my flesh

but if this is true,

then how is it possible

that you now,

don't know me at all?

you pushed me behind

as if under a bus

to hold together your past

when holding onto us

went to the back burner.

you moved forward

and that's fine

but you forgot

and for that, I can

not.

The Promise

the words are wrapped so tightly

and so eloquently

I can't believe they've been spoken

to me

the token holds me tightly

it warms my heart to know

that he's not going

very far

from the place that we call home

his words are true

and his actions real

my dreams are known

– they do exist

they shine through him

as he shines through this

I often can't

explain just how

the feelings feel

wrapped around

but he made the special promise

that I hold so dear to me

cause it feels as though

it is the only thing

I truly can believe