Time

as the winds whistle through the screens
and the voices bounce from wall to wall
my mind drifts far between
wandering and roaming and waiting its time
for peace and love to enter its life
but time passes by
and leaves us behind
telling us to hold on hope
since love will find us one day soon
it's sure of this it tells us too
that we deserve nothing less
yet lies surround and swirl about
containing hope and all desires
holding them captive and deep within
far above on falling stars
keeping us from holding on
to the ones we once knew we had
that we had let go of in hope of more
through time we waited and desired
until now as we are left
with none

Trapped

surrounded by Darkness
walls moving in
closer
and closer
inch by inch
each inhalation
drawing them in
pulling them closer
On top of you
until stopping
is all you can
do
to survive
No breaths
closed eyes
darkness Envelopes you
and finally
there is nothing left

Finally, The Truth

I needed space

I needed time

I needed to understand

that what I did was wrong

that I hurt you

that I caused you pain

that everything we had hoped for

had faded away

it all came crashing down

suffocating –

restricting –

telling me ... it wasn't fair

I had become the source

of your pain

when already, you dealt with worse

it happened in a snap of time

forever changing everything

I couldn't look you in the eye

'cause what I saw, was what I had left

behind

I quickly became that guy

that caused you

the most pain

and I couldn't live with my

shame

I always thought that I would be

the guy to keep you

safe and happy

It became difficult

to look at

you

knowing all that I had done

but I hope you know

that it once was real

because I had truly wanted

to be that guy

for you

Short-Term Instead

you once understood me

down to the slightest

crease in my flesh

but if this is true,

then how is it possible

that you now,

don't know me at all?

you pushed me behind

as if under a bus

to hold together your past

when holding onto us

went to the back burner.

you moved forward

and that's fine

but you forgot

and for that, I can

not.

Despair

the trees pass by
the wind whistles past
the sun rises and falls
with the sky
– but all I can think about
is how you left me
broken

Worthless

the Pain
Heartache
and Devastation
that comes from Failing
from Not being Enough
no matter how much Effort
and how hard i Try
it'll Never be Enough
i will Never
be Enough

Convenient Standby

Life is too short
to dwell in the past
or even the future

But I can't help
but ponder the small things
that mean a lot
in the moment

You say you love me
then why don't I ever
come first?

Why am I brushed aside
as if I'm merely
a convenience?